Missing Home

This past Sunday we loaded up the van and left for church in Chihuahua. From there we headed north to El Paso. We were feeling like we needed a break and had our shopping list ready. It turned out to be more fun that I could have hoped for. I was thinking, with how long our shopping list was, the girls would not have any fun which would make it miserable for us. But they had so much fun. B was in need of clothes and shoes. She had a blast trying different stuff on, and didn't get tired of it all afternoon. I think it was the first shopping day that we have ever had where all of us enjoyed ourselves. Thankfully we found almost everything we needed and got some Christmas shopping done:) We thought it wouldn't be fair to expect the girls to do everything we wanted to do, so we went swimming one morning, and found that it isn't as common here as it is back in Steinbach. We found an indoor pool with sprinklers and such for kids, and we had it all to ourselves, all for only $6. We will definitely be doing that again. Oh, and of course we had to go for some McD's for lunch.

But there comes a time for the short holiday to end, and we have to come "home". Yes, it was harder coming back. We are missing home like crazy these days, and it would be far too easy to pack a suitcase and head north. I'm asking myself today, "is this really where I am suppose to be?" "Life felt so much easier a year ago back in Steinbach when I could call up anyone familiar to come over, or go out". Yes life is different now for us. Within our house we do feel at home and are so thankful for that. With various people we also feel like we have friends, but still not nearly as close as those back home. And family....well we have our church family here who have been awesome, but it's still not family. I am so thankful we have a great group of staff here, they are our family out here.

Please remember us in your prayers as we would love to be there with all of you. We are homesick, and it takes a lot to admit that. It's hard being vulnerable, and I am slowly learning that it's not healthy to keep it all in. So tonight, I will be soaking my feet to relax (and to keep warm) and thinking about my purpose in this life. How do I be a wife, mom, homemaker, friend, and server of God all at the same time??? My first response is...isn't that exactly what I did when living in Steinbach? But then I think...why is it so much harder here? That is the question I am trying to figure out for myself. I sure hope I can find the answer soon. It sure is easier being vulnerable when typing.

Oh, and guess what? We woke up to it snowing yesterday!!! Can't you just imagine my excitement? I almost started Christmas baking and decorating. haha